christmas is in 4 days, but it doesn't feel like anything at all. i mean, yes, we've done our christmas shopping, we've rehearshed the songs for the carolling with our choir instructor, i'm caught up in preparations for christmas eve service, even right now my mum is screaming for me to go and help her wrap presents. BUT. it doesn't even feel like its going to be christmas. it just feels like a normal day. there isn't even a christmas tree in the house for heaven's sake.

excitement level, zero. and usually i'm very excited about christmas. not cos its my birthday, but cos its a big day that everybody celebrates together. my christmases get more and more meaningless by the year. i still remember when i would help my mum drag out the christmas tree and string the lights happily. now? my mum has thrown away the christmas tree and refuses to buy another one. and the best part is, when i asked her to find something to do on christmas day itself since to date, we have nothing planned, she told me AIYAH SO BIG ALREADY STILL NEED ME TO HELP YOU FIND PROGRAMMES. GO AND FIND YOUR OWN PROGRAMMES LA! AT THE MOST JUST STAY AT HOME, NO BIG DEAL WHAT!

sigh. i need someone to spend christmas with. any takers?

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